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Personal post. I just want to vent…..

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Venting is good. I have a few things to say; not sure if they’ll help, but I tried.

I suppose this comes off as cheesy or maybe insincere over the internet, but there will always be people who care. Sometimes they’re hard to see, and sometimes their are things getting in the way of interacting with them, but they’re there nonetheless. When and if people don’t care, it’s their loss for two reasons. They’re losing all the wonderful friendships because they’d rather deal in proximity rather than intimacy - which means they’re losing you. And secondly, people who don’t care for others don’t care for themselves in the right ways.

But getting back on track…

Things feel sluggish and it seems like you’re going nowhere, but trust me, you are going somewhere. Nothing is ever permanent. Things do get better. It’s never too late for anybody. Some people are in their 30s before they get their lives on track. Not that I’m saying this will be you, but everyone reaches their equilibrium at different paces. For every young person on their Masters and what have you, there are several who are still a little bit behind. And there’s no shame in that. Everyone’s good at different things, and a lot of the people who seem to be in front of you are blessed with different circumstances. These types of things can never be said too much, even if you do already know them. Because you’ll get there.

Still, though, even if things will get better, that doesn’t change how much things hurt right now. I really feel for you. Anybody in a similar situation would feel similar feelings to you, you’re not spoiled. It would do you a lot of good to see friends, and I’m sure you recognise. But it’s a matter of how, isn’t it. Maybe Skype? Phone call? Maybe it will help if you remember that you do not have to be a certain way for your friends to hang out or interact with you. You’ll always be worth a true friend’s time, regardless of any mood or slump you’re in. If not, maybe there’s a club you can join where you live? I can give you my Skype? If that wouldn’t be weird.

Maybe to stop your life feeling like a routine, you could take up walking? Or, you could look up free events where you live and go there. Even just planning what to do at those events can be nice- they are for me, anyway. Fill your time with a new hobby. Go to the library and just read something. I’m not sure, but there should be a lot of free things you can do to at least get out of the house. If you can shake your ‘routine’ feelings, that’ll make things a little bit better.